Feeble Knees

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Now What?

It's 9:00 pm. Do I know where my life is?

Bug is sleeping. Mr. F is out meeting an old college buddy. We scarfed down leftovers for dinner (chicken curry burrito wraps - sounds creative, but really it's just cuisine born of laziness), There are no dishes to clean up. It's dark. It's completely quiet. For the first time in I'm not sure how long I have real quiet time to myself. I am completely free to do stuff! Whatever I want!


What did I use to do with my time?

The first ten or fifteen minutes were wasted by the incessant spinning in my brain as I ran through all my possible options:

  1. Pick up a book
  2. Call my sister
  3. Call my friend
  4. Respond to emails
  5. Sleep
  6. Catch up on some old blog friends
  7. Write
  8. Catalog some photos
  9. Pick up around the house
  10. Sleep

Then I started getting a little bummed by the total ordinariness of my list. What has my life come to that I actually crave time to just pick up the phone and call someone?

The thing is, during the course of the day I have several Very Good Ideas. Maybe even a couple of Extremely Intriguing Ideas that I know I should write about. So what happens? They come and go out of my head and never make a safe landing on paper or pixel. I used to think that writers who had to carry little notebooks or notecards in order to jot down ideas on the spur of the moment were a little neurotic. It wasn't my style, I told myself. But when I get to the end of a day or have a precious quiet moment like this one, I realize now the folly of my ways.

I got nuthin'!

So its time to start a serious campaign to banish all this mental flab clogging up my brain before I give up entirely and my grey matter turns to tofu. The goal is to read at least one chapter of a book and write something every day, either online in the blog or offline in my own private journal (the one I haven't been keeping for years).

Tomorrow will be day one of my new mental challenge... Results will be posted here in a week.

Wish me luck!
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